wala lang..i'm bored and i decided to make an entry sa blog ko.haha.it's sembreak remember? bawal mag-aral.hahahah.
wala lang..when i woke up this morning..i just felt something really strange na parang..."shit,nakakainggit.." alam mo yun..kasi sa sophnight yun eh..haha..kaso..it's done so wala na..
i dunno why..but it's just when i see a sweet couple here and there, i just get sad and lonely inside pero pinapakita ko nalang na i'm smiling..hahaha! parang gago talaga ako.. eh kasi naman eh..if wala kang someone to you know, love..talagang you'll really get the feeling na parang there's something missing..ewan..basta ganun yung dating nun sakin eh..
tas sobrang nung soph night, wala akong date..dateless talaga.. i know it doesn't have to be a requirement but still, masaya ka talaga dun.. nandun nga yung girl na gusto ko, pero nagusap ba kami? hindi.nagsama ba kami kahit konti? hindi rin. shit pare.. tas sabay may naninira pa sakin so lalong sasama sakin yung impression nung girl.. ewan ko talaga..ang daming surot sa mundo..kahit bestfriend niya pa yata sakin galit eh.. ewan ko, tas malamang it's all my fault..everything that happened..ano pa ba magagawa ko? wala na..maghintay? hindi ko alam. i really am confused.. damn.. time is running out.. not really.. but i think it is..
may feeling talaga ako na halos lahat nalang talaga nung people na kilala ko, may lovelife..alam mo yun, it's not that i'm desperate..pero i feel na kung pwede sila magkaroon ng someone to be in a relationship with, sana naman ako rin diba? hmm. ewan ko.. i remembered what roy asked me, " Charles, ba't ganun, ang ganda ng girlfriend ko pero ako,ang pangit ko?" hmm... come to think of it.. i really dunno how a girl looks at a guy.. really..kasi naman eh..kung sa mga kilala kong girls na gusto ko, they go for the looks but they don't look closer, they don't look inside..palagi nalang:"shet, ang gwapo oh my god..." walang "grabe noh, ang bait niya." ewan ko..it's just really weird to get this kind of a feeling..
i dunno..why does the world have to be this complicated? is this reality? kailangan ba akong mahirapan bago ako maging todo saya..? why can't i be the other guys there na sobrang saya na nila sa lives nila? yung hindi na talaga sila nahihirapan..may lovelife,may future careers, super yaman tas super special..it's like everything they want, they get? i really am confused..
pero anyway, no choice talaga eh..kailangan talaga harapin to..yeah mehn..
bye! training pa for intervillage..
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